Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile Symone, 030793 Cheryl's blog here. Kind off talky with loads of words. Some make sense some don't. Like this blog, come back and read more, don't like, please don't spam my tag board. Just a school girl going through her school life. Nothing much nothing less. Likes to eat but kind of aware not to eat too much. Thats about it. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? (By the person who did this skin) — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Taggings Exits <3 Laogong <3 BerBer Fion Amabel ZhenZhen gf Rachel Dead Cousin's Blog Archives February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 December 2011 January 2012 March 2012 May 2012 June 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 April 2013 September 2014 September 2015 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Tuesday, November 30, 2010 Blog Blog Blogging Hey! Super happy today. Keep earning den today with the help of XxSmexyBoyxX He is super great and is gonna help me earn more tomorrow! YAY! Trying to download reset hack cos almost draining all the npc. Tomorrow got CIP for gg so gonna do somemore work to prepare for tomorrow. Gotta wrap up alittle more things... Seal up a few bottles and to bundle up some items and bring it to school tomorrow in case NCC never bring their soft toy to be wrapped. Gotta dig more wrapping paper for spare items too. Hmm... after that have a session of continuing earning den with XxSmexyBoyxX. Thats about all... Btw, the babys were cute plus cute ;woot One was growing up real  healthily and the other is a cute newborn with perfect baby skin. Just a little unstable... Once the baby is more stable, he can start playing real fun already... Time passes so fast I thought DaoXun was just born only! WTH.... gotta catch up with time before I get eaten up by it... Thats about it so.... bye! Btw... i got something up my mind... everytime I post something new, I should post a video!  Heheheh... not sure yet.. see how happy I am first...  LOL>> Anyways... thats it.  ALWAYS LOVING <3 CHERYL <3 Friday, November 26, 2010 Uber uber sad I don't know why but I am tired today. No mood for anything not even in the mood to go and buy lunch. Was reluctant but in the end cooked instant noodle for lunch. Ended up with everything to my com. But things are just not working out for me, my email in hotmail has been blocked for I don't know what reason. Tried to unblock it but it goes to I don't know where am I pages. Drats~ At least there are still things to be happy about... Tomorrow is DaoXun's first birthday so have to go there in the morning tomorrow..... Then on the day after, will be my aunt's baby first month! Still do not know the name yet but really eager to see the baby! Amidst all these gloomy air, there is still happiness which is great! And the wedding bells will be ringing as grandma's god son's daughter will be getting married. But who really cares all these actually.. To me, all these are just events to show your face to everyone there and be bored off as the adults get carried away chatting about their life and gossiping about others. Bored off and more bored. But still, have a blissful marriage! Bundles of joy for the newborn and the first year boy! Cute cute faces coming up, please continue enjoying your holidays and for those rotting at home like me,  ROT MORE~ Always loving you all Cheryl Thursday, November 25, 2010 Annoyed! So freaking annoyed! That woman told me to help her deliver the flower and I was just checking up on the direction. She who knows nothing at all thought everything was so easy, tell me to find this and find that. She thinks I'm the master of map reading? URGH! She is so damn freaking annoying! She was just right beside me and talking so loudly of course my ear drums hurt! Then I only told her she was too loud that my ear drums hurt, she screamed right in. She is so freaking mad and crazy! Why an old hag like her act like such a child and is so childish? I ignore her and continue watching gossip girl, she blast her television. She is so mad, childish and annoying! Bro was so good as to tolerate her intolerable attitude. I know no one is perfect and I don't expect her to be perfect either. However, she is  insufferable and I just can't tolerate her "I am not wrong at all" attitude. She won't face up to her mistakes and always makes the wrong to the right. Urgh and ewww! So disgusted about that old hag. Annoying! >< Monday, November 22, 2010 Update update Updating bloggie... Didn't use com much pass this two days so was updating a little lesser. First up, Sunday, went to bugis with ZhenZhen to watch Harry Potter and shop for her cousin's birthday. I pulled her to watch Harry Potter and she liked it! Then shopped for her cousin's birthday present which is heels and for her own CNY clothes too. On the way home, there were some funny encounters and reached home at 7 plus. Monday, had to wake early to go to school. Had to get some plushies to be wrapped as CIP and make some gifts as Christmas present to the orphanage Went to Eugenia's house to wrap it up and slacked at her house awhile before heading home. Just found out something real great at her house too!  Eugenia and her brother have the same birth date but with 1 year apart. Super boring at home but December should have more entertaining things coming up. Awaiting December... Cheryl Monday, November 15, 2010 Sad sad sad So freaking bored at home that I have nothing much to post about. Freaking mad as I really miss some places very very much but can't go back there for I don't know how long. My neighbour whom I have the habit of calling him uncle since we first move in has just passed away two days ago. Actually wanted to blog about it two days ago but was too lazy to blog about it. He was really kind and really nice. Every morning no matter how early it was, when I have to set off for school, he would definitely be sitting by the chair beside the table reading newspaper. I would always turn towards his door and call him uncle as I walk pass. There was once when I forgot to bring my house key and waiting for my mum to come home to open the door and he found him sitting by the stairs waiting for my mum home but he invited me in while waiting for my home. Well anyways out with the crap but rest in peace uncle. Thank you for being so kind to me over the years since we moved in here years ago together and being such a great neighbour to all of us. Rest in peace. Saturday, November 13, 2010 Back So boring these pass few day that I've got nothing to do except to play audi. Been rotting at home all day long and I have no idea how more longer am I gonna do this. Its so sian~ Tried not to be so pissed of easily and managed with ease^^ Starting to have myself back... The Cheryl that can be happy and with good patience. But there is someone who has been trying to irritate me and that is none other then my brother and there is nothing i can so about it. So I just control the temper more. At least that is something great to do then to rot more at home :D Nothing much to say buh bye~~ Cheryl Wednesday, November 10, 2010 Boring day. Today was super boring! In the morning was dragged by mum to go to school to buy books. The people there was counting the total amount with many different amount each so everything was so long. Finally we were done with the books and I turned around and saw someone who seem to be studying look so familiar... can't remember who that guy was but he seem super familiar.... After that went home and then the singtel people came and started shifting the modem to the living room. Big business worh~ firstly the first guy came... he can't handle it as it was only his third day doing this... Then came another more professional one but still can't do it and there came another one!  This time, he came in a duo~ so in a total, there came 4 guys trying to solve our cute little modem. Really interesting but finally its done and I tried to play audi again. Bad things comes one after another and my audi just dced and I can't login anymore afterwards... Sian ah! Then play online game from then on until now...  Super boring... hope by tomorrow audi will be fine. BuhBye~ Tuesday, November 9, 2010 Heres the story of this gurl... Here is the story of this very girl who writes this blog.... Her childhood was like any other one... cute, bubbly girl that makes the older ones happy. Once she gets scolded a little bit she would cry and go to sleep. That was when she was at the age of four... When she came to primary school... When she gets scolded and beaten when she is naughty, she would just cry and go hide in her room for the rest of the day. (How weak was she..) Finally, she came to the age of 11, which is primary 5. Same thing, when she gets scolded or beaten she grew tired of it and ignored their nags and scoldings and take them as chanting. When she came to the age of 13, she received many stress, many difficulties. She manage to overcome some but failed in many and was in dispair.... And again, when her parents scolded her, this time it was a little different...She stared hard at her mother and just yelled back at her. Because of all those stress her mother has pressed on her, she started to feel anger... she was no longer who she was when she was younger... she became short tempered, easily annoyed and impatient. At least there is something that she would be happy to see and cheer her up; a cute bubbly little baby or toddler. All she hope for now is that she would have a younger sibling soon be it girl or boy just one to light up this family's dull and plain life. And also, on the other hand, so as they can pin all their time to the younger sibling so that she will not be so caged by her mother controling her everything that she became so sick of and is going numb. This girl here is wondering when will she be able to have such a dream come true... Hopefully, it will be within her teenage life so she can enjoy the remaining of her teenage life for she had a very bad impression of her first teenage year.. Shedding alot of tear and being sad almost everyday but concealing it. Hopefully one day, everything will turn out fine. Hopefully.... Saturday, November 6, 2010 FREAKING MOTHER OF MINE! DAMN HER FUCKING ASSHOLE SHE DON'T EVEN DESERVE IT IN MY POINT OF VIEW! SHE IS LIKE FREAKING ANNOYING ALL SHE CAN DO IS TO BLAME ON EVERYTHING I DO AND NOT DO! SHANSHAN FALL DOWN ALSO BLAME ON ME I WASN'T EVEN THE ONE TENDING FOR HIM AT THAT TIME ALSO MY FAULT. BRO MADE HIM CHASE HIM UNTIL HE FELL I DON'T SEE HIM GETTING SCOLDED. HE CHASE AFTER BRO TO GET REVENGE OF MAKING HIM FALLING DOWN ALSO MY FAULT. HE WANT TO SPRAYER ALSO MY FAULT. HE CRY LIKE MAD ALSO MY FAULT. EVERYTHING ALSO MY FAULT. FINE! I HAD A VERY GOOD DAY OF ENJOYMENT WITH HIM THIS AFTERNOON I DON'T SEE HIM CRYING OR ME BURSTING WITH FURY. WE WERE BOTH LAUGHING AND SMILING THE WHOLE AFTERNOON. WE WERE EVEN PLAYING INDOOR CATCHING AND I DON'T SEE HIM UPSET OR ANYTHING. ONCE YOU REACH HOME EVERYTHINNG CHANGED. I CAN OBVIOUSLY SEE THAT YOU ARE PICKING ON ME. YOU THINK I LIKE YOU IS IT? YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I HATE YOU. YOU SAY YOU WON/'T PAMPER HIM AREN'T YOU THE ONE PAMPERING HIM THE MOST NOW? AND ON THE OTHER HAND I'M TEACHING HIM NEW AND FUN THINGS LIKE SINGING NURSURY RYHMES SINCE THIS MORNING, TEACHING HIM TO GET HYPER AND DANCE TO NICE SONGS, TEACHING HIM HOW TO COUNT FROM 1 TO 10. I DON'T SEE YOU DOING IT EITHER. WHY DON'T YOU LOOK AT HIM AND SEE HOW MUCH HE HAVE LEARNT TODAY. I CAN TELL YOU THAT SOME OF THE THING HE LEARNT YOU WON'T EVEN KNOW. PICK ON ME IF YOU WANT! I WON'T CARE A FUCKING SHIT ABOUT YOU ANYMORE. I'VE LOST MY COOL, I CAN'T HANDLE YOU BEING SUCH A TYRANT AND I WON'T JUST KEEP QUIET ANYMORE. GO ON AND TELL HOW REBELLOUS I AM TO THE RELATIVES. TELL ALL OF THEM! I KNOW YOU ARE BEST IN THAT. EVERYTIME I SEE THEM I CAN HEAR THEM SAYING SEE THAT IS THE GIRL THAT IS SO REBELLOUS SAYING WHAT WANT GO CONVERT ALL THOSE. LET THEM SAY ALL THEY WANT I WON'T CARE ABOUT WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT ME. YOU ARE THE ONE AT FAULT AND YOU WON'T ADMIT IT. FINE SINCE YOU ARE SUCH A SORE LOSER I DON'T LIKE TO GET ALONG WITH PEOPLE LIKE YOU. I REALLY FREAKING HOPE THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY CONNECTION WITH PEOPLE LIKE YOU. ITS JUST MY LUCK HAVE KNOWN YOU IN MY LIFE. WHY AM I SO UNLUCKY TO HAVE YOU AS MY MOTHER? EVEN GRANDMA KNOWS ABOUT YOUR TRUE COLOURS JUST THAT SHE DON'T SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT ONLY. EVEN DAD AND BRO KNOWS ABOUT HOW YOU ARE AGAINST ME JUST THAT THEY KEEP QUIET ABOUT IT. I BET YOU WILL NEVER ADMIT YOU YOU LOSER. GET A LIFE! Wednesday, November 3, 2010 My message to beloved Zhen Zhen continue: If you have anything to say but can't tell it other people, I'll be there for you all ready to hear about it. But despite all these, I'll be there to share with you my joy and laughter in the class I'll be in next year. You'll have to share yours with me too okays? I don't know If we will be in the same class in sec 3 and 4 but I know that we have shared a very memorable time of our life together. We have shared our joy, out sadness, our anger, our happiness. I'll be there for you forever even if we will be apart next year, its not that it is the end of the world. We can still be together next year but naturally you'll still be close with your new classmates right? Get along well with them okies? I'll do that too. Have fun next year I Love You. I don't know why but I'm suddenly crying. But I do know one thing which is those are tears of joy and laughter we have spent this year. Thanks Zhen Zhen for your special message to me. Don't be too sad as it is not the things that is going to happen in future that bothers us but the memory we have created together. All of us have created an extraordinary memory that I know that all of us can't forget. Then fun joy and laughter. The anger the sadness and how we stood up for each other. Our different cliques, our different interest our characters that created this class into a very weird and great class.  I'll never forget this class as it has left me a very big memory that I'll never forget and it will be deeply etched in my mind. Lets have fun together in different classes and tell each other how fun or bad is the class but be sure to say everything as every detail counts! The guys and the girls are just as great and we are all equal. There may be some conflicts here and there but after this year we may not have a class as great as this anymore so be grateful to each other for the memories we have created. Every single one of you rocks and so be grateful to each other. I shall end it here. Shouldn't have went to watch the movie now I keep thinking of it SO SCARY! No courage at all! When I woke up this morning, the house was so quiet with only korkor's song blasting the room. Eugenia sms me for I overslept and forgot to go for guides this morning. Rush for guides and then home in less then an hour. Reached home bro and me went for lunch. Supposed to be in mac but was full and so we went to KFC. He was running late so he left first and I was to sit there myself to finish the loads of food he left for me. He upsized my meal and also left part of his for me. URGH~ super full... Went home and is gonna be going for the BBQ soon. Meeting kwan and xuan then to zhen and nerissa. Looking forward to an enjoyable BBQ and a memorable one. But for now, I gotta get ready to set off soon. seeya tonight~ Tuesday, November 2, 2010 Blah Blah Blah Had a long day today and was rather tired. Started off with waking up and going to guides to get the banner set up. We had to paint the the banner with striking colour. Got my stuffs on the paint and my hand was always on paint. After the big painting, went to paint the paint on my hand as different skin tone. When I was washing it off, it was like skin peeling off and eeew~ But was rather fun to see it peel off... After that went home saw the lunch was the least appetizing and did not eat it despite my hunger. Was seriously hungry easily recently. Fear later grow super fat I die die. After that mum called home to tell me to bring 舅妈 and 山山 to hougang mall and walk around. That boy was like super high~ Ate frolick yumyum... Then after that the adults grab the groceries only left with me to care for the little devilish creature with to horns striking out of his head and a very long and pointed tail... That creature was like super high today and running around and I was to chase after him =.=" That is the consequence of babysitting. He wanted to play at the slide got him to come down don't want. Carry him off from there he cry. Only when I took out my handy stickers was I saved. So many temptations for him all around. Finally we were home. That boy wanted to drink milk and was shouting for it. LITERALLY! Had to put him to sleep before I finally had peace for awhile before he woke up again! This time it was the adults who have to look after him god bless them. And I was free to eat my dinner, shower and to use my precious laptop. His still up to this time and that dear dear boy is trying to eat toast. He gotta sleep! WHOO! Tomorrow shall be the class bbq and yum and cheers for satay, corns, sweet potatoes and.....MARSHMALLOW! Awaiting tomorrow and counting down when it finally reaches 5pm and we shall all be Lin Lao Shi's house! So happy and sad that this will be our first gathering and last tome together as a whole class. Gonna miss you guys and gonna be seperated from you guys! SAD! SAD! SAD! Hang out more together next year kaykay. And stop having internal conflicts amongst us. Have fun in the class you are going to and all the best to getting along well with your classmates too! Cheers to 1E2. 1E2 HUAT AH! Monday, November 1, 2010 Funfilled day Had a good day with Zhen and Xuan today to watch the horror movie Child's Eye. Story plot, not at all scary. There are movies scarier with story plot and movie scary. But wasn't sitting real still as Zhen keep on grabbing my wrist. The 3D and normal view are not like any difference. But the most memorable scene is where by rainie's friend came in asking her why she did not answer her phone call and suddenly her hand stretched out and just flew towards her. Rainie beat the crap out of her but in a blink of eye, she was at the door again. Really freaked me out. Before meeting them to tampines today was on guides and was cleaning banners. The banners were like freaking dusty~ Wiped some clean and have to do christmas globe. Don't have all the material but will make do with the things i have. Hope i can do a good one out. Thats all for today, buh bye.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay