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Monday, April 18, 2011
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder  Beauty of a beautiful flower is to be admired and adored <3 Today went to school dead tired... Hadn't had enough sleep... (thanks to not used to sleeping with stranger and tossing and turning) Woke up in intervals at night.. Got down only to have the day inviting me in through raining.. Took out my umbrella, walked through the rain~ Reach school.. School starts... CRT... Detention cancelled... Home... Lapp... Sleep... Wake... Dinner... Shower... Lapp... That all baby! <3 Saturday, April 16, 2011
Tired wah!  I'm still finding and creating it out! Please wait a little longer... Before I can tell and share with others about my life. I want a rich fulfilling and wonderful life to share with. So that people in future can tell others.. Hey there's Cheryl! Lets hear more about her life stories! And they'll share it with others too and lead each other to another successful and enriching life so it can pass on as a cycle. Who doesn't wan something as that? Its a real good thing too. Lets start sharing bit by bit I'm going to fill up this very blog. And people can come in and find out about me. Those that doesn't know me and know me through what I write. Some may show confused feeling, some real reflective. Overall, please bear with what I write as all I can do is to spam my feelings through words. I don't look back to see what I've write until I post it but just write whatever I have to say in these words. Today, I woke at about 6, realised I was slightly late... I hurried to get changed, brushed up, tie my plaits and head off the Changkat Changi. But first off, I'll be meeting teresa and enguenia at tampines before we head on to simei. However, eugenia was taking her time and reached tampines real later. Kinda pissed off about that but with her cute face, I can't bear to scold her! Had a long long time in uniform check. Then we were in drills once again. The officers told us to swing our arms all the way so I just swung it real hard. Totally pulled and woah almost as if my arms are gonna fly out. Thankfully, my arms are deeply attached to my bone :D Alot of wheels.... Marking of time... Alignment... Etc. The officers are real weird... They keep just like... call the whole contingent 'Girl you all must align to your left is that clear?' Like there was more then 1 girl and he still girl girl... Should be Girls! All of you must be aligned to your left marker is that clear? Doesn't that sounds alot better? Anyways after that, we got off. Then we went home. Go home rain rain~ Then played com a bit... Mum wanted go airport pick up some relative.. Now staying at my house IN my ROOM.. Lying on MY BED. Why whenever she kaypo all these always affect me... I'm real innocent! Its like I don't get along well with people and instantly so you keep push all these craps to me...? Crap it, where do I sleep now? Not with bro, not with stranger, not with parents. My room is like firstly, taken by gramps... now, to a stranger. What she want? Bro got a whole room with nothing that is not his in that room. As for me, I have a whole chunk of gramp's thing in my room which take about 2/6 of the room. one bed which take 1/6 of the room and finally, 2/6 which is my bed. Now my bed is taken by stranger... Where should I go to? Hmm... I might as well move out. Best best and win win solution. How long more am I chained to this dog hole? How long more will it take for me to break free and get the fucking hell out of this hell hole? I'm still waiting for no idea how long more... Please get me out of here soon. Friday, April 15, 2011
Speech day  The annual Speech Day came and passed :D Tired like ASS! Tomorrow still gotta go ChangKat Changi Sec for more National Day training... Stand there, around. From conference room to canteen. Serve VIP again this year. Stand there serve VIPS and teachers. Stood there serve food serve serve.... Don't know how long but it seemed like eternity. Finally it was awful done! Got our plate! Left a puny tiny bit of rice left so shared equally amongst us. Ate more of the dishes and umm! Its nice! Sorex Chia keep stare stare stare...... Go poke me somemore. Went to pounced on him heheh... After that finish dinner go take fruit punch he still see see.. I shout across see what? He turn away hehe... Keep smile smile at me like freaking weird. Say first time see guides uniform.. really so ignorant. Good luck for tomorrow's training and pray pray... Tomorrow wake up early enough... Don't later slack in bed until don't know what time.... Wake early early prepare your's truly uniform. Want sleep badly. Thursday, April 14, 2011
A cool~ day  A really cold day ehh? Started day off with NYAA. Chanbara~ Wear the helmet... Hit hit hit. Music. 881. Chinese Recess. History. Science. Test. English. Summary. Reflection. Dumb writing. Lunch. Burger in Canteen. Math CRT. Mr Suhaimi's wrong equation. Art project awhile... Head down to Bishan. Raining cats and dogs on the way. Reach there wet wet. Bought a newer uniform as the one I have were like colours of GB which guider dislike. We all love the darker one ain't? Transfering badges over now. Prepare for tomorrow's speech day. Good luck! Wednesday, April 13, 2011
A change! Changes changes! Whoo a new skin! Like it? Looks quite nice to me :D Today was fine... Me and Dominic was discussing about whether we can remember everyone in the class 6-8 I turn out to be able to remember 26 in class. At least I was better then him hoohoo~ I rock I rock~ Best among them okie? Chin Hin was worst. Today early morning go detention.. Sit outside GO until 9.15 More waiting until finally 10.20. 2 more weeks and I'll be free. Jialat jialat... Next time won't use com on wednesday :D Afternoon super sian... Mum tell me get bro's birth cert. Need go all the way to CP. Only to see him happily playing bball away. Like gonna make me wait? No way! Wise up you b@st@rd. Don't expect me to wait for you ji@o bin dog. Mother super pissed with the person behind the counter. Spammed the bad service button. Tomorrow buy guides uniform cause my uniform colour stands out too much. I really love it though... Got about the same colour as brigade's uniform. Pfft pfft. too bad... Bye! Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Good day :D Ahoy~ Good day matey! Urgh.... facebook not working with me... Still stuck in This I promise you. Promises of eternal devotion to one single person. N'sync has such a beautiful voice <3  Years passed, though they broke up, the are still in solo! Justin Timberlake <3 Old old odies hehe... They still oh so rock with their voice! Sounds so calming. Today my day was fine, no roar no quarrel so far and been peaceful. Maybe its because Mum got home later today. One of the rare days I don't get angered! Applause! Not a really eventful day, Not a very boring day either. But it will be boring tomorrow though as will have to go school earlier for detention.. Shouldn't have used com last Wednesday... Regretted it badly! :((  Boys Like Girls, Another of my favourite. Think its about time I stop be crazy about Kpop and go back to English songs. RnB, Blues, Classics. Boys bands rocks! May not be as hot as 2pm, beast etc, their voice are comparable to them <3 They are charismatic too! Hopes tomorrow 3 hour will be in library and can find something to do. At least will have air con and will have books to read.. Hope don't finish reading one book in 2 hours can lerh LOL . Should start reading slower so I can enjoy a book longer. I want Percy Jacksons! Vampire Diaries! Roar my next hunt for book will be you! Haha.... These authors are really awesome to even be able to write something as good as these. Rock rock rock ttm! Monday, April 11, 2011
Had a fucked up night pfft. Morning, fine, fun. 2.4km pass. Really curious on one thing... Is winning really that important? Is it a big achievement? What's the point of winning when you've got a bad attitude? Its weird... Shall continue what I'm saying here tomorrow. Fucking mother pffted my night off. Moodless! ROAR! Sunday, April 10, 2011
Baby please don't go too far away D: LOL . Revolving round my life are 2 important people and they don't know about it! Anyways, Saturday was awesome! One of the best Saturdays this year! Firstly, woke late but reached in time at Bishan. Cos our school only given 3 kimono me and teresa got out of it. Help them make up and wear kimono then go relax. Shiok ah, after that go slack a bit with Tai Ma and Grandma. After that J8, Yami <3 Go Novena, lunch, stayed there till 6. Reach home, saw the video of enrollment of the GB and BB. They are real awesome and so proud of them! Knew they were awesome since last year, they love drills <3 My gosh! Never expected the GB to do fancy drills and they did well. :D Real awesome, hope they'll not be as troubled as I did once they reach secondary and wants to come back to serve. D: Haix... everytime I think back on that very day of dedication service last year, never fail to bring me down. It totally crashed my entire hope of serving to as long as ever. They always ask me, when will I be back? I don't know, I really don't know. It will all be in the control of my mother. My mother is what stopped me from going, and she'll be the one that will let me go back. Be it she finally believes in God or she still don't, I hope she'll come round soon and let me go back. Real fun there, miss there wish hope and prays to be with them. Pray the future seniors won't turn out like this too. GB rocks totally! Especially 75th Coy GB <3 YOU RAWK TO THE MAX! <3 Wednesday, April 6, 2011
just so you knoq Just so you know ah, It wasn't so bad when it added. We are still friends and like what we had said, If you are sad my shoulders are still here for you. If I really grow to 170cm tall, you really will have to treat me to a meal. If you really want to talk to someone but can't find any, I'll be your listening ears. What I have promise you then, still remains. I like to keep my promises and so do you okie? And I'll definitely give you back a present because you gave me alien :D I'm still cherishing it okies? Its so huggable <3 Fine fine thats all :D +++Cheryl+++ Sorry luh. Feel sorreh. No matter what still awkward though. Today super sian ah. Go school late liao. Broke record luh. Sat there VP P talk talk teachers see see.. Finally they talk to us then some lecture talk talk some more let us go back to class. Geog dang it. Forgot bring geog books heng Mr Tay not there. Then the rest of the day lessons per normal . Tried make more star roses, real fun and hard to make now learning paper rose in origami. After school, stayed in class awhile.. go office there pass Mdm Nashita the drug poem. Meet LT got high talk talk hug hugs reminisce reminisce.. At bus stop all those 6-8 derh talk talk... Go CP eat pizza hut talk somemore.. Makan makan... So many to catch up. Then go hougang mall.. Went KFC meet up with atm, lx also there. Kinda expected it cause its impossible for her to be alone eating lunch at KFC. Set down got poked hard by her as usual. Saw lx but real awkward and weird so like stranger. Talk some more, catch up some more. Went cotton on LT bought her dress quite nice. Then atm and lx went off. Me and LT took the mrt and went to buangkok then walk home. Saw the dark clouds gathering, hastened my pace and thought some more, think think think... Think, nothing come out. Weird.... Sian next three weeks need go school at 7.20..... Sian ah~ next time better be out of house 10 mins earlier then won't get such a bad treatment lerh. Pfft... Made a rose for Mummy she still kp me.. Don't know what she wants la.. Everytime i give her something usually handmade and takes a lot of time derh. However, she never seems to appreciate my effort lorh. One day when she finally sees my effort I bet she's gonna cry cause its already too late cause she's been trying to hurt me hard straight all the time and she thinks I deserves it. Whether she care or not I think i shouldn't care lerh ba... Only hurt me more nia. But if don't care nothing will happen and things will remain sour leh. Sua, save enough money move out after studies. Start planning now ba. Maybe if I stay further from her, things may not be so sour. Sour dao~ worst then lemon or vinegar or lime lol. Acidic level super high. Die die~. LOL . ---xXCherylXx--- Monday, April 4, 2011
Wanted to post long ago Wanted to post long ago but... Tired la... Friday, after school, got the boxy, gathered everything underneath the table and strode off as if I was fired. Did this last year twice hehe... Had a short and brief lunch, head back to school. Baby and Neri was outside 1N2 talking to NPCC.. Got them to library instead to enjoy aircon. Then they changed into uniform and then prepared to see the Sec 1s getting enrolled. Still got time, Neri taught me a tune on the piano River Flows In You. A very beautiful, calming and soothing one. And while playing the piano, I remembered last year on the same piano, weeks and days before NDP parade. Some of the morning at about 6 plus 7, I'll go to the hall and somebody will be there waiting for me. Playing the tune, Canon Groove. That person taught me some of it and by now I've forgotten it. Still, it was fun having to wake earlier then usual to the hall, by the corridor with that person teaching me rifle drill. I was still a complete idiot and retard at it then. Now, I know and remember the commands, just gotta practice more in perfecting it. However, Guides don't have to learn it LOL . Back to the story... Then comes the horseshoe formation in preparation for enrollment. Sec 1s cui is the only thing to describe.. Blur blur derh. Still, its their first attempt though not their first time in drill. After busy times, gonna chiong spam them on drills hehe...(Might cause them hate me worh) Then chiong down to guides house for the Japanese traditional folks dance. Fun fun, got selected in. Kimono was lose at first but the end product was my whole upper waist was bundled up... Removed it off after fitting and bye bye bye with ending the day of carrying heavy boxes. Went to novena to go home with Mummeh. Was out of the shop late so me and Mummeh went to wait for Daddeh. Went home together after that. Satureday, woke up early, got my uniform ready and headed to guide's house again. Then gotta tie their hairs, how it feels when one gotta tie alot of people's hair especially when there are big dandruff... I once had a bad nightmare about it worst... Sian still gotta help them tie... Walked to Kuo Chuan Presbyterian did basics drill.. Did for don't know how long but thank God for his merciful grace and support I did not collapsed from tiredness. Gotta thank God more once again for I had more years of training in drills then others and that I was selected for this year's NDP and I'll be part of it. Even out of GB, God is still there I know.. supporting me in times of needs, praying to him makes me feels at comfort. Best of all, his trying to help me make my life work out vibrantly. Thank God for his effort. :D Of course He rules ttm! After Kuo Chuan, headed to J8, had lunch and yami yogurt <3 Then trained to Kovan with cousin kin and then to Catherine cousin's house to do up the album for Grandma's blessed birthday. Trained home, I dropped dead tired. Next day went down to Nex to get the cake done at Icing room and we all decorated it with all our hearts and souls of serious effort to bring and and memories for her birthday this year. At the restaurant, everything was up, Grandma didn't found out of the surprise the we have came out with until we decided to cut the cake. She was surprised there as a cake and best of all, prepared by us. Sang her the birthday song, cut the cake, blew the candles... We handed her her album present. I helped her slowly to unwrap the album from the wrapping paper... She was surprised to see the cover of her birthday years ago of the cousin's group photo with her. We are all so cute and innocent then <3 She flipped through it, browsed slowly.. reminiscing the time and where all the photos where taken and amazed at how well we have done it in the sly. A success indeed, me Catherine cousin and Jia Jing cousin all pleased in how well we have did and left a memorable impression for NaiPo. Went to tuition straight after lunch and then Ms Tan, being herself.. commented on my dressing. Haix Haix... wear apple got wrong meh? Low cut a little bit also got wrong meh? I use bag cover la~ Diao... Lao Gu Ban hehe.. Finally today. School as per normal. No less no more... Wait... there is more! A new sofa donated by don't know who to the library and it was awfully comfortable. Ah! And now back with more headaches... Its real weird but after Chingay, headaches seem to struck me more and more often and frequent. Its as if the veins in the temple are squeezing what ever they can into my poor brain. Pray the pain will go away... x_Cheryl_x |
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