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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Monday, June 6, 2011
Despair Giving up... What ever I ever ever do is ever ever useless. What is the exact point of hiding the real me? And I can tell for sure that my friends, even my clique don't know who am I. If I were to suddenly stop acting who I am, and just be myself, what will they react? They'll just, whats wrong with her? So GL for what? Gotta admit that I'm quite a good actor, act until so well, I totally hid myself and shunned it out of this fucked up world. Who and what the fuck am I exactly?? A girl who is always reliant on her friend? A girl who keeps quiet and shunned the fucking fucked up world away? A noisy and crazy girl? How many roles have I played? Uncountable... Maybe I should just give up on acting and just be as what I am now. Since my belief is to see everyone smile, its quite useless when you yourself can't give out a proper sincere smile... I can't seem to smile as my heart tells me to anymore. It all seem so forcefully.. All these strains.. Friends, cliques, family, guys, classmate and school. All these, I want to throw the fucking off away. Dump it straight into the rubbish chute and forget about it. At least once that is gone, I can smile properly once again. Since I can't seem to throw that away, I should throw myself eh? I kind of threw it already... I'm already in deep despair and given up hopes. No point clinging on, STOP IT ALREADY! Everything should come to a halt soon. Real fast. |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
Is where you oughta stay |
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