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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Saturday, August 27, 2011
Emotions breakdowns.... Saw some random photo while blog hopping, Stop by some blogs that was of my friends and well, The photos there are really very very nice. Nice that I seriously am very touched. Yup yup, there's been a lot of emotional struggles recently. Firstly, its friends, Next is special feelings towards another. And next is Family. 3 main big problem to me. Hit on friends first. It also seem so close yet so far. My classmates are really very weird and is a very weird group of people which is kind of the first time in my life to see this. Sometime they are reasonable, Other times, they are so unreasonable. You are of use to them or you stir their interest, they are your best friend. Interest lost, can't be bothered to bother you at all. I really, I'm serious, have a very special power of attract and repelling people quite well. Firstly, its always this cycle and never ending. The clique is breaking up. Seem so to me. *laughs* Always wanted to tell ZhenZhen some things, She's either always busy, or with her other friends. Yup, our best friend image seems image only now. No one listens, its all so quiet. No one speaks, it all so quiet too. Second, Special feelings. It always occurs so that I see a guy that I can see and deem to be quite nice, I just hit it off with that guy. Thankfully, I told myself not to stead anyone this year. Or trouble would rise up and down before I know it. Wanted to see if there is a person that can really stop me from me being so hitting it off, Well, no. Recently there's this ncc cadet hitting it off quite well. But over time, thankfully there wasn't any hug and kiss. The feelings would definitely subside over time. Only one manage to still let me think about that person, Apparently, his attached. Quite great that his attached, Guys get over it faster than girls anyways. Takes me hell ya, dammmmmmmnnnnnn looonnnnng. @.@ Sometimes, I cry in despair, sometime I laugh cause it's good he wasn't with someone like me. I'm such a crazy girl. Lastly, Family. Quarrels seems to be occurring more and more. Which is quite annoying, Having a lot of cold wars with Mum recently. Unless I have cold war with her, She'll never listen and continue to side bro blindly. She never listens, after all the mad things that happened last year.. Bro with all his craps, talk craps daily trying to brainwash her his doing his best for O's when his not. Sympathy gainer is so pathetic. Slam the door on me, You think you always can gain everything without giving some? There's no free lunch in this world dude! You have always been under mummy's motherly care and you just can't get some independence? Get a life. Mummy's always trying to brainwash me too. Stopping me from believing in the things I choose to believe in her problem. It won't stop me. Brother, you better stop being a wastrel and good for nothing. You gain no respect from me with the things you do. Mum too, you threw away the respect I have for you, too bad respect have to be gained. Lost my respect for you, I show non of you respect. Undeserving people are like dogs to me. Get your crap away, you know my temper are much worse then any of you in the whole house. Everyone in the house knows my temper so just deal with it, I won't change, its in my genes, blame yourself for giving such a great gene to me. Been hearing a lot of story from GB side, Its mostly about Andrea. There's this side of the story, Another side of the story. And another. Really lazy to piece it all up and drats... Mum just annoyed me once again. Hearing those two dog's voice really annoy me ear and annoys me. Hope to leave this pathetic place soon... Anyways, after all these drama's I really want to settle down, Really settle down. Maybe tell them wanna learn independence practically and just move out and I'll definitely survive.. But that is still, after I finish my studies. After I finished my studies, I'm sure by then all will be gone, the drama will end and a new drama would begin. I'll have to rewrite another drama then. Dramas, I love Drama cause Life's like one. |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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