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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Friday, August 12, 2011
Here is what I want to say. I just looked through what happened last year and it was like one whole big bomb placed upon me. What I did to Li Xian last year was really very unfair to him. I was really very selfish as I keep telling myself, I don't want to get hurt. I told him, I'll be fine, I got by one and I'll get by another. But was that really the truth? If he really believed what I wrote then, well that is then he don't understand me at all then. But, just a quick review, Thinking back now, he was more of an older brother looking after a younger sister to me then another. Though I was really selfish I got to say, at least to my knowledge his happy now, less emo etc. That is much better as if he is still very unhappy, it would be really really my fault. Last year I was very rush like any other normal teenager, this year, I want to be more composed and plan ahead so I don't lose out anymore. I don't want to be what I was. Though I have to admit, my temper is really bad recently, I can't help it with all the things rounding up around me recently. Many things are happening again and well, all these are all rounding up near NDP again. If I really have fallen for another guy, hopefully, I'll be wiser, stronger, stop being so selfish and be more mature in handling stuffs. If this time, I really handle it badly once more, I really have to tell myself to stop flirting, stop being so flirty. I really have to self control. If all these doesn't work, I'll really have to break away from guys. Or maybe, have fear and anger towards guys to stop being flirty to them. But really, I really have to tell myself to stop being so irritated so easily. Anything and everything can make me loose patience. Well, thats about it. Write up some more next time in updating of what happened in NDP and etc and etc. |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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