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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
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Friday, October 28, 2011
I almost cried. Believed it or not, I was so close to tears! Really can't afford to truthfully and seriously cry in class. I can really just tear up for all I care but I can never never cry in front of them. It's really a very big downfall for my pride! The whole day in school today, I was the least worried or even thinking it's the last day of school. Though I dread heading to sec 3 but dread staying sec 2 as well, I really really need to get my report book back to see my screwing science that I failed! At the end of the day, Mdm Lim was giving out the report book announcing the class ranking of those better ones, I was like, screw it! I'm damn nervous about my results for the first time of my live. As if, I can't afford to be in the lower then top 3. And since I'm the last girl in class, I get the report book last! And I was thinking, Shermin got first, Nasya got third, Chee Bin did better then me in science, And I was, OMG Chee Bin must be the second position and I'll be the forth! And I was already real close to just break down straight there! And finally Mdm Lim called my name and she said I got second, I was "SCREW! I GOT SECOND!" I can't believe it at all! And I was close to tears for tears of joy and ran straight to Shermin for she have been comforting me the whole day! I totally shriek and I was like, "Shermin! I did it! It's a second position!" And I felt like the tears were going to fall. Then I tried to calm myself, No matter how hard I tried, it seemed so hard! And not only that, overall, I still screwing failed science! Which means I can't get into a proper class with double humans and a math. And it's all thanks to that stupid school with no good combination, Bro's combination was like, combine science, el, cl, emath, amath, geog and hist. And it's like the perfect combination for me! I won't have to drop any at all! Why can't we like just switch over and he can do those crap subjects I'm bad at and I can focus on the subjects I'm confident and better in? Screw right? And there's only 2 classes that's open for combine science and both are crappy class. And all that I'm left to choose is crappy class. Pointless! I might as well just say I am failing my O's in 2 years time straight there. Crap. Today's cooking misadventure was fine, Things did improve but I believe if we try something else, and enhance a little more on appearance and flavouring, we could really do well. But still, that POL has totally no intention on changing the menu. Not just that, she is bent on having me doing up those "gadgets" for her. Which is = total unhygienic? I can't believe she actually wanted me to do that. May be creative, but we really need something that will hide the twines. And twines are too thick for chopsticks which might as well just say use the twine to serve the dish eh? Well, no more frustration, I'm deleting my frustrations at the end of november. November, the month that is still teeny, tiny, bit of having to deal with POL. Hopefully by December, I can talk mum into letting the whole family out for a family outing which we haven't done in years. Talk daddy into taking off for us is mum's forte. Mum should be quite free and I can help out in the flower shop. Maybe aunt will teach me more about flower arrangement. Hopefully by then I can finally memorize all the prices. LOL. Christmas, I hope to get into a little volunteering. Grandma can help. And I should be able clock off CIP points, with cutting away boredom from holiday, doing good deed and thinking less and be nicer to people. TROLOL |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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