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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Friday, January 13, 2012
Omfg I really can't control! For example, I get pissed all the time when daddy wants to use my phone to play that fucking retarded and annoying game. And he'll purposely disturb me and get me 10 times more pissed. And I have no idea how to express it out! I can't possibly shout it out right? I usually suppress all these feelings in me but recently, it keeps trying to escape. I can't even find anywhere to vent t all out. Please like seriously, don't piss me any further. I think I'll just cry it out this time and pour it all out. I really can't handle suppressing a whole chunk of anger in me. I blame it all on the stupid genes I get. Why did they gave birth to me this way? I hate it. I hate the way I am. I hate the fact that I am this way. I don't want to continue on like this. I want to be someone who can express them self without minding others. I want to stop sparing a thought for people around me and just be me. I'm happy, then so be it. I'm sad, just show it all out. I'm mad, just let me blast out everything and I'll be fine. But nothing I can do about that. I'm really edgy. So please I beg everyone, don't piss me off. It's not only difficult for me to express myself but also bad for health to be suppressing so much negative feelings in a person. Zhen say I have split personality, maybe that is the case but it's all because of what? All because of everyone around me and bring upon a me that fits to them. I don't know which one is the real me anymore. I just want to be me and yet I don't know who is it. I've lost alright, I've lost sight. And now, I want to fucking cry out and I still can't pour it all out. What else? Gk silt my wrist? I ain't that kind of person. I can't even cry properly right now. God please tell me exactly what to do? I'm lost and confused. And I'm mad. Very mad. And anger can lead to sin. And what can I do about it if I can't vent it out properly. Why can't people around me be nicer. I act like I'm tolerant for this and that but actually, I'm intolerant to many things. I can't tolerate many things, people. Even mundane objects. So please be a little more considerate to me since I'm trying my best to accommodate almost everyone. Love me or hate me, whatever. I just don't want to lose anyone I care about. That's why I try my best to accommodate. You guys never lost anyone you care about dearly, you'll never understand how I feel. Everyone around me are more precious than this stupid phone. Than myself. Get of? |
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But baby, where they knock you down and out
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